;

one word,
a smile,
a hug,
one voice,
is all it takes for someone to choose.

Healing II

come on darling

let's rise above this barrier

let go of these grudges 

cast away the past

for it no longer needs to last

so share smile

at least for a while.

Healing

After the chaos,

the unbearable battles,

the constant heartbreaks,

the sleepless nights,

the loss of a loved one,
after the storm,

we'll heal.

day by day

we write a chapter in our stories.

we bare battle scars.

and with each scar,

tells a different story and only in time will our scars heal.

In time we heal through waking up each morning,

 choosing

  to keeping going

self-care

you are a daring daisy.

so give yourself water,
because there will be days where you'll feel like it's a drought,

expose yourself to the everlasting light, where its powers will heal your wounds.
for days where you have shined so bright, rest.
the next day awaits.

Follow the wind and he'll teach you how to dance.

listen for you are one with nature.

R.I.P.

Lying in a casket,

beneath the dirt and stones.

Left with nothing, but thoughts and bones.

Longing to see the light, 

for this is a frightful night.

A frightful night, where my monsters come to bite.

monsters I

 not all monsters are big and hairy.
not all monsters are dark and scary.
a monster can simply be those you see daily.

Dazed and Confused.

                     I feel like I'm always awake, never really sleeping when I'm suppose to. 

                             I can hear, see, and still feel everything as if I were awake. 

                                    The line that borders reality and dreams are a haze.

                                              I walk, dazed and confused.

Anywhere else

     I'm sitting at a coffee shop, on a gloomy Sunday afternoon, thinking of other places I could be at.   When someone asks, if you could go anywhere, where would you go? I could go anywhere if I wanted. But, I often stand in shock, as if I could actually pack up and go. I've always wanted to travel, go to all seven continents. If I had the choice to be anywhere, I'd like to be anywhere near the mountains; I have a need to be in the presence of nature. I admire the beautiful places untouched by man. I call them Virgin Islands. I would love to live somewhere, where there would be a local outdoor market near by, somewhere small with a beautiful scene, where I can run around bare. 

life lesson vol.1

                                  My happiness depends on my decisions, not anyone.
                    To depend on someone else for your happiness is a set up for a disappointment.

                                                           I'm starting to see that now.
                                                             

AM thoughts

     I long for a happiness so genuine that, it fills every battle scar and heals them; a happiness where two AM cries turn into late night drives. I crave for a rush, like most teenagers, I desire adventure. I have a hunger to go beyond this city, to venture into the unknown; to be away from the noise, but be the noise. Don't we all? Like most, we're too afraid to let go of what we have. Our possessions are a part of what's holding us down, keeping us caged in a utopia. Another thing that keeps us from genuine happiness is, and I know this might sound corny, but ourselves. We've heard it all "you are your worst enemy." At first, I didn't really understand the meaning, but I've come to believe that, looking throughout history, human beings are capable of destruction and creation. We have minds that enable us to do anything.  In other words, you have the power to set yourself free. Don't be enthralled by what you see, let go. It might seem easy or very challenging, but it's different for everyone. I think I'm still workin on it.  My lust for life has no boundaries, but to write my stories. 

                                                                     One day

I adore...

bubbles

flowers on my hair

running wild

long road trips

lakes/oceans

60s/70s music 

lovely/dreamy eyes
luscious lips
hugs
art
late nights
God
smile's
books
poetry
food
words
rainy/stormy days
Ricky Nelson

chicken wild rice soup from Subway
helping others
traveling
the word "wanderlust"
curly hair
anyone with musical abilities
star gazing
learning bizarre facts
running
talking about anything
chocolate (milky way & kit Kat)
the mountains
groovy outfits
competitive games
motivation videos
humble/loving people
dancing
movie nights
real talk
Bella

Love: Part 1

     Love has many meanings to where it cannot be defined, but is felt. To Google, by definition love is "an intense feeling of deep affection." Is love more than that? Love may be seeing that one person at work or at school; it may be going on dates and making memories. Maybe it's dancing to classic songs in the middle of the kitchen like people do in movies. Or maybe a text message such as "I'm okay mom." Is love forcing to share their forbidden fruit?  Is love lying next to someone while spilling "I love you' s" to another? Is love a warm feeling? Is love always right? Should love be deep conversations at two a.m.? Should love have to look like something to feel it? Should love be perfect? Should love be honest, loyal, humble, or kept? Was love, really love when all was given up for: fights, unmade decisions, or dishonesty?
      To me love is feeling that spark or connection between you and another. Love are treasured memories. Love is passionate. Love is knowing that someone you care about is alright. Love is choosing to stay through everything. Love is accepting who you are. Love is respecting others decision. Love is loyalty. Love brings out the truth. Love is not perfect, but imperfect. Love is sacrifice. Love is love. Love is a crazy feeling. Love makes you do the unthinkable. Love brings the broken together. Love is creation.  Love is more than "an intense feeling of deep affection." But above all else love should be kept when found.

26 July 2018

26 July 2018

     I am on a journey to find my truest self. In order to find myself, I must go through a path where the truth lies ahead. I've heard that the truth will set you free, but what if the truth isn't what you want to hear? Then I guess I've just got to keep going. Stay on the path. As I've heard a plethora of times, the best way to get to where you want to go is to "take a step." My choices will determine my future is something I am aware of. Along my journey will come bad days, bad choices, mistakes, heart aches, and I will be ready to fight and get through it. All in all, my feelings and thoughts are never really permanent, because they will change. I will change.

                                                                  Nothing really goes away, 

                                                                          they just change.

                                                                              - Me & my friend Mason

What does it mean to be free?

In the meadows I'll dance with flowers in my hair,

while the wind whispers wonders in my ear.

As the little lake mirrors the sky,

I'll sing and dance by the meadow,

-a flower child

      To be free is to be awakened by your spirit. Where you will leave what has no place in your heart and venture into the unknown. When you are free you will follow a path to where your heart will lead.